May 26, 2008 title

I feel like I have less and less to say on this thing. Does that mean I have less to say than I did when I was younger? Or does it just mean I'm being more judicious and careful with what I do say on the internet? I'm not really sure at this point. I do realize that my posts on this thing have been drifting off. I'm not ready to quite give up on this thing yet, but probably won't be updating it all that regularly.

Job hunting is strange. Everything seems so surreal. It still hasn't really dawned on me that I'll be done living in Champaign in a couple of weeks. It's going to be a strange summer - it'll be the first summer I've spent in Illinois for six years.

I feel like everything is sort of in stasis right now. I'll let you know when things get interesting again. :)

May 15, 2008

Endings and Beginnings

Wow. It's really been a long time since I've written in here. I've sort of dropped off the face of the planet this semester. I also haven't been writing much lately. I realized this about a month ago, and that I'd been feeling agitated. I started writing in a spiral every couple of nights before going to bed, and it helped a lot. I guess I was going through writing withdrawals? Is that possible? It doesn't really seem to matter what I write about either, just that I write in general. Anyway, I'll have to remember that. Writing and running are my stress relievers.

So, I'm done with student teaching. It was...intense, and rewarding, and convinced me that I really can do this. Just in case you were wondering, I'm good at teaching, and I like it. Sounds like I chose the right occupation for my life.

I've been applying for jobs lately, but I've only heard from one so far... I do have an interview tomorrow for that one, which I'm very excited and nervous about. It's so strange having absolutely no idea where I'm going to be next year. It's the first time in my life where there is no clear next step. I always knew that junior high came after grammar school, and high school came after junior high, and while I didn't know which college I wanted to go to the whole time, I knew that I only really had to choose one and then I would go there. This is different. I knew I was going to get into colleges. I'm not so certain I'm going to get a job this year, or where it will be if I get one. This is different than the whole college application thing - in college, I just had to pick one. In this one, someone has to pick me. It's such a weird, uncertain thing.

Anyway... I'm in sort of a floating state right now. I can't see what happens beyond the end of this summer. Strangely, though, I'm okay with that. It's kind of exciting, in a nerve wracking kind of way.

Time to move forward...

January 5, 2008

Happy New Year!

I know this post is a little belated, and that I've sort of dropped off the face of the earth a little bit...this winter break has been great, but pretty hectic. Running around all of Illinois and parts of Indiana and Wisconsin, seeing family/friends and still trying to relax a little bit before student teaching starts. This break is going fast.

I'm excited for 2008. It's looking really, really scary (because the entire second half of it is an unknown), but holds a lot of possibilities. This year I student teach, I graduate college, I look for (and hopefully find a job), and have no idea where I'm going to be in six or seven months.

Some of my highlights of break: Seeing my family & friends (the ones I have seen so far), Black Hawks game (they won! 2-5), haha, LAN party, Christmas, getting to meet/hang out with a bunch of Wes's peace corps friends over new years, oh yeah, and probably the biggest highlight, yesterday. My Christmas present from Wes was to go see Phantom of the Opera in Chicago. It was -amazing-. And so incredibly well done. To top it off, I had a restaurant gift card that my dad had generously given me, so we went out for a really nice dinner afterwards. Yesterday rocked.

Anyway...just letting you all know I'm still alive. :) I've got a week left of break; if I haven't seen you yet give me a call.

November 19, 2007

Wes's return!

I realize it's been a ridiculously long time since I've updated. Things have been kind of crazy. Partly because of school, but mostly in a good way, in that Wes is back. For real. How amazing is that?

I picked him up from the airport on the Saturday of Thanksgiving was strange because things kind of came full circle. It was raining, just like it was when I dropped him off at the airport over two years ago. And we went to Wadsworth the next night, to meet a bunch of friends at Kaisers, the same pizza place we met his friends at the weekend before he left. It was a strange, awesome sort of picking up where we left off...everything exactly the same but so different at the same time. Our reunion was of course felt so unreal. It feels unreal now that he was still in Tanzania three weeks ago.

It's so amazing to have him back; there's going to be some getting used to things though. Mainly saying goodbye for any length of time. Wes went to Chicago yesterday to see Steve's band play, and it was so strange saying goodbye for just a night, so hard to convince myself that it really WAS just for a night and not 6 or 10 months. Casual conversations on the phone are weird too. Awesome, but weird - it's been over two years since I've had the ability to call him just randomly for a few minutes to ask a few questions, or call casually for a few other minutes, rather than worrying about making every second of every phone call count. It's going to take awhile before I'm convinced that he's really here, for real, he's not just here for a couple of weeks, and that I DON'T have to say goodbye to him for any more half-years.

Anyway, other than that... we had a lot of visitors this past weekend; Wade and Rohit were here from Wednesday to Sunday, and Kevin and Dania were in town over the weekend. It was a lot of fun to see everyone, although left me kind of exhausted at the end of it - it's hard to juggle visitors and schoolwork. Still, I had a blast, we had some great dinners made for us by Rohit, and had a couple of really fun nights out over the weekend, including karaoke! :)

Just finishing up the semester at this point...I have a LOT to do, as I have all semester, but I think I'll be able to pull it together for the end. Next semester I'm student teaching!

November 15, 2007


That title is a squeal of excitement. I just got off the phone - my last transcontinental phone call that I'll have to make to Wes. The next time I talk to him, I'm going to be talking to him face to face. Two days! He leaves tomorrow morning from Tanzania. It seems so strange and unreal, like we've been counting down forever (and really, we have - two years is an extremely long time to live on different continents), it's hard to wrap my brain around. Also making it very difficult to sleep at night...I'm too excited! It's really going to happen...he's really coming home.